‘I could feel Rueben wriggling inside me’ Standing in the nursery, I put down my maternity bag and gazed round at the lemon-painted walls, the Baby-gros and the white teddy bear in the cot. I’d imagined this moment for so long, me bringing my little boy back.
But seeing the room so still, my arms so empty, I began to cry. There were no celebrations because, quite simply, there was no baby to bring home...
I was already mum to my son Darcy, three, when in March 2011 I discovered I was pregnant again. My partner Peter, 30, was thrilled and Darcy kept telling everyone he was going to be a big brother. As the weeks passed, I prepared for becoming a mum-of-two, and at 18 weeks we discovered we…