To Talk About Me
My father and mother are meeting secretly
again, with my brother off to one side
looking on, as he never did in life,
so absorbed in what he was doing,
so oblivious, so resolutely out-of-the-house,
and my sister also, although less so,
almost only a shadow among them now
since she’s still alive, still the honor student,
the prom queen, the blonde Student Council President,
and me, the baby, the problem, the subject of discussion,
the most remote of all, smug and sarcastic,
watching them together as if in a glass cube
caged like pets, like venomous spiders
unable to scale the glass, bewildered, harmless,
trying and flailing, slipping down, again and again,
unable to comprehend where they are
or how to adapt—
nor am I,…